Realism

No matter how hard you plan, if it's not yours, then it's not. I've learnt this countless times before. How many more similar lessons are there? I'm tired. I hope there aren't anymore, because they are draining, very draining indeed. Energy. Hope. Drive. Optimism.

If only I could reach out and grasp the solution without affecting anyone around me. If only things weren't that complicated. If only I had the means. If only I knew in advance what would happen in future so that I need not writhe in making painstaking indecisive decisions. If only things would turn out to be the way they were suppose to be.