I shall hold on,

till there is nothing left to hold on to.

Realism

No matter how hard you plan, if it's not yours, then it's not. I've learnt this countless times before. How many more similar lessons are there? I'm tired. I hope there aren't anymore, because they are draining, very draining indeed. Energy. Hope. Drive. Optimism.

If only I could reach out and grasp the solution without affecting anyone around me. If only things weren't that complicated. If only I had the means. If only I knew in advance what would happen in future so that I need not writhe in making painstaking indecisive decisions. If only things would turn out to be the way they were suppose to be.